When you’re trying to conceive, especially over a long time, it’s easy to forget that normal life keeps going. You can become so obsessed with tests, doctors appointments and schedules, that nothing else seems important.
We’ve had a tough year, and not just from a fertility point of view. We had the ectopic pregnancy rupture in March, but we also had: our car broken into, the same car damaged again - just a week after it was repaired, we’ve had a couple of stressful weeks waiting to see if I had cancer, and finally we thought our pet cat was going to be put down. That would be more than enough stress for anyone, even if we weren’t trying to start a family.
Last month we just pushed through all the stress, trying to keep to our TTC schedule. We ignored all the additional problems and worries, as if they weren’t taking their toll. Never giving ourselves the time to rest and regroup. You get so used to holding your breath and blindly moving forward; hoping that everything is going to be all right next month, you forget that it’s okay to stop and breathe a moment.
So this month we decided to give ourselves a break. We’ll skip the fertility drugs and the tests and instead we’ll try to recharge our energies. I’m not sure four weeks is really long enough, but hopefully it will give us a new perspective.
This was originally published on the Emma's Diary Blog